.undefineable.

HURT

2011-05-08T00:52:00.000-07:00

Do you believe everyone you know will hurt you eventually?

i couldn't agree more.

mungkin kau tak rase sekarang.

but when it comes to you, you will be like

"eyh seriously,die betul2 ke tipu2 ckp mcm tue?

and they keep hurting you over, over and over again

yet you always be extremely forgiving

sampai sometimes,tak tahu dari mane dtg kesabaran and kekuatan

well i guess close and love ones can hurt you more than strangers do.

contoh kalau makcik kat kedai sayur marah you sebab you jatuhkan bakul tomato dia

dan

kalau kakak you marah sbb you rosakkan lipstik die.

mane lagi sedih?

kalau kena marah dgn makcik sayur..pastu balek rumah dan bergembira dgn orang yang disayangi ..

TADDAA..hilang sedih.

kan?

simply because they are strangers!!!

and believe me things that hurt your mom or your dad, hurt you more,kan?

tapi umi selalu pesan,

"kalau orang buat jahat kat kite, ingatlah balik setiap kebaikan yang die pernah buat'

dear umi,ayah,

i promise,i ll be your strength.

dear fatin and d.wan,

take care,

jangan kite jadi bahan untuk orang fitnah umi and ayah.

and dear people,

katalah ape saje

pandang lah dengan apa pandangan sekali pun.

because it can only make us stronger

p/s-rase nak ajak umi ngan ayah dtg dok sini or tempat fatin or mane2 lah..

biar jauh dari mereka.

tapi umi jawab"tapi ni tanah air umi"..heeeehee

and yes setiap berlaku insyaAllah ade hikmah disebaliknya.

I LOVE YOU UMI

2011-05-08T00:02:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU UMI,

you are my mom,my doctor ,my nurse ,

my teacher,my friend

my chauffeur, my cook, my counselor, my motivator,

my hair dresser,my fashion advisor,

my inspiration, my strength

you are my everything !!

i love you juta juta juta juta juta juta juta juta juta..

man came to the Prophet (SAW) and asked:

"O Messenger of Allah! to whom should I show kindness? He replied: Your mother, next your mother, next your mother, and then comes your father..." (Sunan Abu Daud)

And We have enjoined on man (to be dutiful and good) to his parents. His mother bore him in weakness and hardship upon weakness and hardship, and his weaning is in two years give thanks to Me and to your parents, unto Me is the final destination." (Luqman 31:14)

diagnose me!

2010-07-08T00:38:00.000-07:00

sape yang ckp i dah habes exam tu ha??..ckp siket sape??..haa..sape??
i tak boleh orang ckp bukan2 neyh..
hahaha..EMO!
padahal takde orng ckp pon.

belum2..exam belum habes..yang habes baru paper writting.
ade lagi oral yang sedang menunggu lagi 2 hari..boleh la lepak2 jugak.hee..
kalau exam tak cukup sebulan tu bukan mansoura university namenye
tapi nie pun okay la
kalau ikut jadual sebenar..mau dekat dua bulan exam..
jadual baru nie penat sebab rushing..gap antara paper siket.
kalau ikut yang lame2 penat sebab exam lame..
paper2 last emosi dah tak stable habes
i prefer yang sekejap kot..kan2?..ntah ..mane2 lah

tau tak aku ade satu penyakit..

kalau time exam..subhanallah..gatal nye tangan nie nak buat entry
rase mcm ade seribu benda nak tulis.
ade sejuta benda nak share
tapi tahan jugak
pastu rase ade banyaaak benda nak bace kat internet..
sekejap2 rase nak cari resepi itu lah..ini lah..
nak tgk gmbr2 studio tu lah..studio ini lah..
tapi jgn risau i tak tergoda ngan facebook!
tapiii...dgn world cup tergodaaaaa!!!

dah habes exam nie
hammmbeeek..tak de pulak nak menulis ke ape...
nie pun tulis selepas 2 hari lepak tak tahu nak buat ape..huhu
kemas rumah...pastu makan...
pastu layan cerita hagemaru je..kadang2 maen game..
dan semua activity itu haruslah sambil meniarap..
takde nya nak dok kat meja study tgk cite hagemaru.
sloth betol...tahu tak ape tu sloth??
sloth tu sejenis mammal..sloth tido around 15-18 hours per day..
urinate and defecate pun once per week..bapak la pemalass..
so orng yang malas bergerak sesuai la dipanggil slotthhh..
eyh2..tapi i tak tido smpi 15 jam.so tak sesuai sgt la kn??

hurmm...worldcup pun sudah tidak berminat lagi
sebab german dah kalahhh :(

symptom seterusnya.kalau exam bapak la aii..senang sgt nak mengantuk
kadang2 malam.. pukol 1 lebeyh..bace ngan mata separuh terbukak..paksa neyh
pastu bangun bapak la liat..dlm hati kate lepas exam aku naaak tido banyak2..
takde maknaanyaaa.lepas exam...boleh pulak aku tido lmbt bangun awl..
mata bersinar2 plak tu..

aish tu la..syaitan suke sgt kacau mase kite buat benda2 baek kan...
tapi jgn asek nak salahkan syaitan ..diri sendiri tu pon bersalah kalau tak dpt lawan.

ok..i dah bagi symtoms2 nyee..
diagnose me!

*mcm nie lah manusia kan..selalu tak puas hati dgn ape yang ade...
mase bz merungut bz..mase free merungut bosan...

and then i pray..
YA ALLAH ..jauhkan kami dari menjadi hamba MU yang tak bersyukur..
seriously i don't want to be the one

kalau rase aku mcm tu..tegurlah.

may u have a blessed day,
nadiah wahab

HUH!

2010-06-28T05:45:00.000-07:00

i am taking a deep breath

to keep me holding on

nadiah wahab

EHEM..EHEM

2010-05-08T05:22:00.000-07:00

i always ,always and always intended to write here...
like hundreds things came across my mind ..
tapi tak boleh cause no matter how free i am..
still tak boleh nak ddk dpn laptop and tulis entry smpi habes and publish..
drafts ade banyak gile..tapi tak habes tulis..
hee..u know me well i guess...

what did i do all this while?...my last entry in december and now it is already may 2010..
okayla2.baeklah2..bukan december..november..
tapi 29th november can be considered as december la tu kan??..don't be so hard on me....hee..

lecture 4th year dah habes ..YEAY2!!!!...
and final exam is coming..DAAA~~~!!..huhuhu
clinical year sgt best...this year dah start clinical round..

1st round ENT-which is i like the most,i guess...
2nd round COMMUNIY MED-pengsan~huhu..no comment..
3rd round OPHTHAL-GREAT!! and saye rase department nie more systematic than others
4th round FORENSIC AND TOXIC-interesting!!saye SUKE!! feel2 CSI..hahaha..
baeklah sile faham tuan2 dan puan2 ..
CSI adalah hafal script dan make up cantek2..effect rambut terbang2..
then sejam dah bleh selesaikan case.
and i need to hafal BOOKSS!!!and notes..and terpuruk panas and selekeh di rumah..
hahahha...jadi no no no no..TAK SAME!!

rase mcm tipu siket2 kan..?.. HOW FAST TIME FLIES...
BEST!!..i am enjoying each and every moment..
bukan memang mase sekolah dulu2 kite memang dok tunggu saat2 umur mcm nie ke?..
ke aku je?
saat2 umur yang boleh ckp psl kawen..huhu.okay fullstop.

tapi bile dah semakin besar nie..
eyh2 besar as in MATANG OKAY!!..we treat and digest thing differently ...kan??
ke aku je yang rase?
APESAL ASEK AKU JE YANG RASE NIE??..ok2.xpe2..i je.
like i tend to appreciate people more..like i am more resist to everything especially WORDS!!..
like i am dare to CHANGE...like i am more brave to move on..

and i love my changes...because life is always full of surprises..
u love surprises, don't you?...at least i do..but WE LIE..we love surprises that we want...and the one that we don't want we call it UNFORTUNATE..we call it PROBLEM..
yeah i know thing doesn't always seems so right kan?..
..but we are wrong people...yes WE WRONG!!...
there is NO WAY thing that had happened was wrong...
because Allah knows what is the BEST for us..read it all over again..THE BEST.
yes not only the thing that is RIGHT yet, THE BEST ...how BEAUTIFUL is that...
and being RIGHT and the BEST is totally different ..kan?
so then, how dare we dispute His works ..
please,just don't dear...
Semoga Allah xbiar kitw buat keputusan sendirian without HIm..
even for a second of our life..takut sgt kan..
can u imagine how horrible things can be
?

Rase mcm how I went through my fourth year adalah way tooooooo far dari first year dulu..
and I mean in a good way..
bnyak yang lain.maybe jadi more familiar ngan egypt and egyptian.
eyh but still! I can't stand hon yang panjang dan echo tu okay..
maybe jugak sbb system kat university pun dah jadi more systematic.sbb I have friends yang sgt sabar layan I..and I have PUTERIs..
OWh! or maybe sbb ade restaurant indon yang best.
nak feel2 dok jogja ke bandung ke bisa2.haha..
this is the art of life.how your life can turn upside down from just being a plain hard black seed today then become a lovely beauteous blooming flower on the next day .
kalau u always expect a perfect life je..so I guess u don't live in LIFE for real..
but u live in DREAM..wake up!

Still with love,
Nadiahwahab

I MISS YOU!!

2009-11-22T09:21:00.001-08:00

EID UL FITR

2009-09-16T11:17:00.000-07:00

you are invited to

MAJLIS SAMBUTAN HARI RAYA

1st and 2nd syawal

u don't have to pay...come on it's hari raya ...
but please make sure u slip DUIT RAYA in your pocket..MUCH

556 lorong mutiara off jalan peng chepa
15400 kota bharu kelantan

especially to
EX-zainabians 94-00
EX-maherians 01-05
and friends from MANSOURA
and anybody I ever knew

please come

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
maaf zahir batin,
nadiahwahab

cuppy love!

2009-09-16T10:50:00.001-07:00

butter cake + buttercream frosting

by ME!

and i bake with LOVE,

nadiahwahab

sosial bersama FAMILY!

2009-09-07T17:09:00.000-07:00

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salam ramadhan

2009-09-05T09:20:00.000-07:00

May this Ramadhan be a month full of blessing and forgiveness..
for you..me and all....ameeen

with hope,
nadiahwahab

21 years YOUNG..this is serious!

2009-08-08T09:11:00.000-07:00

WARNING:this is a long-winded entry..so BEWARE!!

you know how long does it take for me to make this entry..3 days..semngat neyh tulis tittle pastu hilang idea (bajet selalu tulis entry dgn beridea bernas)...
so peram dulu dlm draft ..huhu..

happy belated 21st birthday to me...
ehem..ehem..i'm not 21 years OLD occay!!...i am 21 years YOUNG..
cepat kan?.i guess..time is not running anymore...but it is speeding up...huh..i can still remember vividly THAT little girl..

that little girl..yang dulu anti gile dgn angsa sbb kena patuk (angsa patuk eyh?..ke ape?patuk kot..takkan patik pulak..hahaha..btw skang pun anti lagi)...

the girls that never ever owned any BARBIE..sbb die lagi suke maen 'ice-water'dgn 'lompat tali getah'...

yang dulu mase sekolah rendah pegi sekolah bawak beg belakang+kiri+kanan semacam nak bermastautin di bilik darjah...

yang dulu kalau tulis biography kat buku autograph member akan tulis 'makanan dan minuman kegemaran'(MEMALUKAN)...

yang dulu suke sgt buku enid blyton...pastu berangan nak masuk high school yang mcm dlm buku2 tue...sbb ade SWIMMING POOL..(dulu ingt Enid nie lelaki..rupanya wanita)

yang dulu jadi die-hardfan(konon) boy band seperti WESTLIFE,BSB,NSYNC dan rakan...

thats the sweet part..i guess
and i miss those portion of my life very very and very much..

as SHE grown up... hurtled down into the real world,much2 more cruel than what she ever dreamed of..
the world where.....
where friendship is not just about having friends..
where people may always give u that dirty and jealousy look..
where love is not as sweet as in the drama...
where wounded heart hurts much2 more than the wounded knee...
and where she would meet wicked boys more than prince charming.

and people..yeah people..people walk into and out of her life..and some stay..there are people who walk out and leave beautiful sweet footprint yet there are those who leave bruise or even scabby wound..
and you know who treats the wounds? ...
the one who STAY...

i've spent 2 decades of my life....
yes i know 2 decades is a long time..
10years+10 years is a long time...
at least long enough to KNOW what is the purpose of life..
as hamba and khaleefah....that's the purpose of life...
but What i m afraid the most is that...
I hanya MENGETAHUI...bukan BERUSAHA menjadi...

i can't change yesterday..but i can certainly look with hope for tomorrow and make it a better day..i don't even know how many seconds,minutes,hours,days,months or how many years more will i have.
so with all the strength that i have...with the people surround me + their prayers and loves..i ll try..to be the better nadiah..

pray for me ...and for the others too..

serious talk hurm?..hee..yeah..and i mean it SERIOUSLY....

hee..now i sound like 21 ...do i?...heee..

header blog juge need a change..
entry sebulan sekali takpe tapi header nak kena best.hahaha.
ok this one tak best pon..
BERSERABUT..but nmpak lebeyh MATANG...
i m mature in mind and young at heart.hahaha...

a few updates..

the sarawak trip was great..nnty nak pegi lagi skali lah...nak stay kat rumah panjang...
fatin sudah fly ke states...wawawa...rindu2....take care dear..
no more braces..yes2..!!
semua orng juge sebuk tanye dah ade pakwe ke belom..ade ketensionan di situ...
attchment maybe tak jadi buat...sbb umi kate takut H1N1..MAYbe....means tak sure lagi...
aku masih langsing seperti dulu dan akan terus langsing..HAHAHA...

"Ya Allah ya tuhanku.panjangkanlah umur kami
dalam keimanan dan ketaatan kepada mu..ameen

millions of love,

nadiahwahab

believe it or not..?..BELIEVE it..

2009-07-09T10:24:00.000-07:00

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THANK YOU ALLAH!!

2009-07-08T12:10:00.000-07:00

3.11a.m-malaysia
i know its late...saye blom tidur juge...

FUUUHH...FUUUHHH...take a deep breath everybody ...

RESULT SUDAH KELUARRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUZZ!!
nurul aida: nadiah
nadieah pInkish: hye yang
nadieah pInkish: sihat ke?>
nurul aida: nadiah, result dah bleh check
nurul aida: tue address
nadieah pInkish: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh
nadieah pInkish: btol kee??
nadieah pInkish: takutnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
nadieah pInkish: cmmane nieee...
nadieah pInkish: takut nak tgk
nadieah pInkish: mane id?
nadieah pInkish: bahasa arab..tak faham
nadieah pInkish: cmmane nak bukak
nurul aida: gune id dkat student card
nurul aida: bwk balek x?
nadieah pInkish: xingt letak mane student card
nadieah pInkish: cammene nie

ok..then aku pon buat aksi berlari2 sekeliling rumah pada pukol 3 pagi..cari dlm purse takde ..naek atas..turun bawah..naek atas balek...cari student card...then..TADAAAAAA..jumpe kat dlm handbag yang bawak balek dr egypt blom kemas...umi ngan ayah pon terjaga..terkejut.. aku dok jogging dlm umah pagi2 buta..

cepat2 turun balek ...tangan parkinson habis tak yah ckp..nak tekeluar rase jantung..

72.74-GOOD..

ALHAMDULILLAH..terus lompat atas katil umi ngan ayah...hee..hugs2...

then...sujud syukur..seriouslyy..THANK YOU ALLAH ...i have no appropriate and enough words to say THANK YOU to ALLAH..

what a big relief

ade FRUST siket2..ok more than siket..sederhana..tak2..banyak juge..sbb result saye turun compared to last year.and juge frust because sbb result kurang dari impian dan harapan...maybe usaha saye blom cukup..and plus..there were so many random things happened sepanjang exam ari tue...and random here equal to BAD...

YES2...i don't have to make any excuses pon kan?..what for?...or to whom should i give it to?,..EXCUSES CHANGE NOTHING...this is what i m afraid the most..UNGRATEFUL..the "If I only…." Syndrome..if only i could trun back the time..if only i tried a lil harder..if only i had known..bla..bla..bla

come on nadiah,ALLAH knows the best darlink..maybe nie boleyh jadi booster dose for me..for next year..next next year...next next next year...

PEOPLE!!...thank you for your prayer..thanks..thanks..and thanks..

millons tons of THANKYOU,
nadiahwahab

I'm BACK!!

2009-07-07T08:01:00.000-07:00

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x appropriate tittle~

2009-06-11T17:56:00.000-07:00

salaM...ATTENTION : i need to glue myself ............

for 16days more ..
15/6/08-pathology oral
24/6/08-microbiology W
27/6/08-microbiology oral

REPORT:

-STATE OF ENERGY: 45 %
-FOCUS LEVEL: 55%
-SANITY: GOOD
-MOOD: NOT SO GOOD
-"TAK SABAR NAK BALEK MALAYSIA" MODE: 100%
-MIGRAINE STATE: EVERY 2 DAY
-BL PREASSURE : NORMAL * I GUESS
-BODY FAT LEVEL:???????????

and now dekat rumah SIDDIQ...kinda recharging myself..why siddiq??...sbb dieorng ade OVEN(promote2)..hak3..TAKLAAAA!!..sbb saye ade 4 darlinks kat sini!!..

thanks for your doa people...

keep praying,
nadiahwahab

tons of sorry..!!

2009-05-20T16:14:00.000-07:00

salam
.huh!!!...sorry for the long hiatus...how i miss to blog..(xpercaya?..)..really i do..hee...first i m so so so so DAMN busy with my final exam...and 2nd umah takde internet..since..since...since like forever...ni pun dpt wireless kat bilik wani(my housemate)..arab mane punye ntah

m done with my fisrt paper..and its pharma...the most dreadful paper i ve ever sit for...
11/5/09-writting paper 1
12/5/09-writting paper 2
13/5/09-case
19/5/09-oral

huh!..huh!..huh!..3writting paper in a row..ya amppuuunn bisa jadi gilaaa guee....and i suffered from dyspnea...tachypnea...tachycardia...hyperglycaemia...hyperlipidemia..opps.....
CORRECTION!!..all are correct except the last one..HAHA
the 1st and 2nd paper ...arghhh!!...the question wasnt SO HARD...but 5 essay questions with 15 marks each and every question needs 3 pages to answer ONLY FOR 2HOURS?....come on la weeeeyyy....50 soalan objective SPM pun bagi 1 1/2 jam..ok2...tapi kalau die bagi 5 jam pun takde la aku akan dpt full marks...(sbb dulu selalu ckg add math aku marah kalau bagi alasan tak cukup masa kalau tak dpt A1..die ckp "NAPE KALAU BAGI KO 3 JAM KO BLEH DPT 100??..ammmek ko!!)...BUT STILL i need more than 2 hours at least..
after the first paper..i was like...dowwnnn gileee...balek umah..i just lay down on wani's bed(sbb katil aku takde ruang dah nak tido..bukan bersepah..cume kurang kemas)...takdek semangat langsung nak study for the next paper...FRUST..FRUST gile..
and smpi after asar..i try hardly to hold my tears...sbb kalau nanges susah nak berhenti..nnty terus migraine..and then suddenly ..i fikir...
where are all my tawakal gone?...yes...whre are they...??...i shouldnt just sit and regret and in the end i got nothing ...cause verily I have put my trust in Allah..no doubt...MY BAD hurm..all i can do is berusaha...and doa is a part of berusaha...tawakkal is a part of berusah..and leave the rest on ALLAH...
..one thing i want to share with u.....
One day Prophet Muhammad, peace and blessings be upon him, noticed a man leaving his camel without tying it. He asked the man, "Why don't you tie down your camel?" and the man answered, "I put my trust in Allah." The Prophet then said, "Tie your camel first, then put your trust in Allah."
means that don't ever say aku bertawakkal if u wake up at 8.50a.m after 10 hours "gaining energy" and sit for ur exam at 9.00a.m..itu bukan tawakkal..itu adalah NGOKNGEK.

biarlah paper yang sudah lepas and for now..i tgh prepare for the next paper...(padahal tgh update blog)
25/5/09-parasitology writting paper
26/05/09-parasitology oral
paper ini adalah berkenaan how many legs does kutu kat atas ur kepala possess...hurm...hee,,,wish me luck...and pray for me and my friends too..

and the MOST IMPORTANT thing that i want to announce is that i am giving myself permission to never, ever make a promise to make an entry again..dulu pernah promised nak masukkan gambar kat dubai..TAPI...HARAAAmMm..habuk pun takde..i ve promised u to make an entry about how to make study fun and again i cant make it..huh!!...because i have no tyme...seriouss..sorryy2..and sorry..and sorry dear readers(kalau ade readers la)...hee...ok..so thats it..NO MORE PROMISES.

so..i wanna wish GOOD LUCK to all the malaysian medical student mansoura university..esp 3rd year n my friend kt 2nd year..and I always pray that insyaAllah..ALLAH is there in every step of our way...

with thousands of love,
nadiahwahab

it has been a while

2009-03-30T15:45:00.000-07:00

..yes it HAS.
sorry people…hee…but I am too busy with my finals preparation.yes2..my 3RD YEAR FINAL EXAM..it will be on 18th of april and I only have 3 weeks left..
3 WEEKS!?????.

.OMG.i am SO SO SO DEAD..and at this moment my ‘to do list’ Is VERY VERY huge and long…and it is even longer than my shopping receipt at WIKALAH…(wikalah=hypermarket..actually I m not sure it is HYPER or HYPOmarket..hiks)..YES.,i need a ‘to do’ list..and a ‘to do’ list doesn’t have to be neatly and beautifully written complete with a small tick box right?..Cause mine ain’t…u should have one too cause it EXTREMELY works

GOSH…there is so much things need to be done but so little time left…and adrenaline rush kinda make it worse..i have tachycardia and my BP is 140/90……owh please2..i guess I am BADLY in need of barbiturates now..and I mean in HIGH dose..

i ve went trough this during my 1st and 2and year..but this time is waaaaaayyyyyyy CRAZIEEERRR
SeRIOUSLY 3rd year medical school is killing me!!..
tons of drug in pharmacology is stabbing me.,
thousands of bacteria virus fungi and whatever microbes behead me
pathology is paralysing me
hundred of worm fleas n mosquito n parasites incise me
but i m not gonna let this happens to me...

I need to organize myself…...

1. Niat..yes reset niatin case u mistakenly set ur niat ….everything i do is for the sake of Allah Decide why you want to do it. Nobody ever really enjoy doing something because they 'should' or they 'have to'.. so Find the honest reason for doing the task

2. Starts with my ‘to do’ list …and please!..do not list down thing beyond your ability..i mean SET YOUR LIMIT…
And take menial tasks away from busy people like YOU such as organising you laundry, this gives busy people more time to be... well...BUSY..and here I mean GET TO KNOW your PRIORITY.

3. Stress is synonymous with medical school..no way to dodge from it right?.,so try to "use" stress...If you can't remedy, nor escape from, what is bothering you, flow with it.for example..munch while you are study helps u to reduce ur stress..so just EAT...at least u can safe your time for lunch...and stress actually can causes more glucose to be delivered to the brain, which makes more energy available to neurons. This, in turn, enhances memory formation...ryte?..hee...please....cope with your stress...or else u gonna be like this

so i guess let start it from NOW!!!..beacause it s never too late for you to start.except your are afraid to

i'll be back with "how to make ur study more fun?".....sounds redicilous huh!!...but hell yeah....study can be fun...

talk to you soon,
nadiahwahab

i m a lady

2009-03-09T11:10:00.000-07:00

salam people..m back...in egypttt...whoaaa.back to my routine life...

i think..it s like every girl ever heard "act as a lady"...did u?

when i was a little girl...i never thought that one day i would be a lady as today and a woman,tomorrow...all that i had imagined is..
-wake up every morning with a smile..
-pick dress from my wardrobe which packed tightly with branded,splendid,PINK clothes..
-get in my OWN car..
-back from hospital(sbb mase nie dah berangan nak jadi doctor)..
-bake my fav cake or pie or wutever..
-and go to sleep with a big smileee AGAIIN..
i imagined i wud have a GREAT day EVERYDAY.GREAT career.BEAUTIFUL and BIG house....GREAT love story..GREAT life..PERFECT hurm?..
but it never happen that way..BEING a LADY never been that easy..because the biggest decision that u have to make is not "nak maen masak2 or nak maen cikgu2?" ANYMOREEE..its " what do i have to cook for today" later it wud be "how much loan do i have to apply for the house"..got me?...
and reading HOW TO BE A LADY? article sometimes doesnt help u at all..

WAIITT...don't get me wrong...I HAVE A GREAT life now..its just sometimes there s day when i feel everything goes wrong and nothing goes right...there is tyme when there is so much pain around..and there is time when my heart bleed..there may be day when u feel like nobody understand u..
YESS it happen to me..it happen to us...

NEVERTHELESS

as a LADY.now i can talk to umi as we are friends..and we talk about everything..its just AWESOME..and now ayah can talk to me about my CAREER...hows that?..i can lepak with my aunty...i have days when i can sit with my LADYFRIENDS and gossiP!!..no more PUPPY LOVE...no more PHEWWIT whistle from mamat2 yang tgh lepak when i pass by them(ke aku dah TAK LAKU ??)..no more uniform.no more "kirimsalam2" thing.....and NOW i can put the tittle MIsS or CIK in the flight booking form...heee..

so i guess more or less it heals the hard part....

pretty hard from what i had imagine hurm??..

and being a LADY ...sometimes i feel i need time to be ALONE!!

i think it wud be fun if u can share ur GIRL,LADY, and WOMEN transformation..sounds fun right?.....hee.so feel free to do so..

I AM A LADY
remember me this way,
nadiah wahab

DARKNESS and BLESSING

2009-02-01T07:49:00.000-08:00

yes!!.alhamdulillah...the exam was over..

tak sedar i have finished half of my third year in medicine...
n this semester..it had been a tough,emotional,painful, semester..yes it was..but.i take it as it is..

Last week i read my friend's blog...she wrote about her darkness time and how she went trough those time...
and last few days i just had a conversation with a good friend..she s now trap in her darkness moment..

i guess everybody has ever been in the DARKNESS..its the time when u feel like u can see nothing..when there is silence and cold..when u feel like u are all alone
when all u can do is just STAY STILL cause u re afraid of misstep stumble and fall and hurt ..
at that time...dont keep on asking WHY you are in the darkness...but FIND the way out from it...
hold tighly to Allah.. grasp Him with all the strength and energy that u have..
and GET UP..RUB THE PAIN...TREAT THE WOUND...and MOVE...search for the LIGHT...
there is always light at the end of the tunnell..

don't run FROM darkness.BUT run TOWARD the light then it ll be much much more easier for you..

i have been in my darkness time too...
and i was crying out loud,begging and hoping i have the strength and the will to step out from it ..and i make it..
i make it EVEN..at first i lost my way...i slipped..i fell and badly hurt .it took me a long time to get over the wound..
i was mumbling over and over again. ..i insanely forgot "Allah does not burden any soul with more than it can bear” [2:286]..even an inch more or an inch less. FOOL ME huh?...
and from this GREAT PRECIOUS experince i ve learn lotsss of thing...
i learn that SEEING after not SEEING is so much more AWESOME than never knwing how does it feel not to be able to SEE..
i learn that to know how does the SWEET taste..we have to taste the BITTER..to appreciate the BEAUTY we have to know how the UGLY is .to feel the warmth we have to feel the cold.
and to truly SEE the light we have to SEE dark...
and the most important thing that i learn is...IF i am in the darkness again..i am wise enough to know where the obstacle is so then i wont be stumbled anymore

yes..there is always hikmah behind everything that happened..but the hardest part is to look for the HIKMAH...
it may come at the end of the story..and it need a lotttt of our forbearance and tenacity...
with Allah;s bounty..He gives a lot of GREAT people around me..ma family..friends..and everybody around...even YOU readers...and those who have been praying for me..
without all these people..their words..their care..their love ..their prayers..i dont think i m able to make it this far...

so the DARKNESS doesnt always be the calamity...but it can be a BLESS...hurm..
but people alway and always tend to count the grief not the blessing...so do i...bad hurm?...

may u have a great2 winter break,
nadiah wahab

oxymetazoline..yea ryte..

2009-01-20T11:28:00.000-08:00

done with pharma..and the exam was...whatever...

sgt susaaaah occay..and today i realize how creative i am..know why?..

aku invent new drug to treat nasal congestion...OXYPRENONE...
ye2..saye tahu...mesty takde orng pernah dgr..there s no such drug on earth...even ko khatam buku pharma 10kali pun.xkan jumpa punye.
hahaha...sbb dah tak tahu sgt nak jwb ape...aku letak sajeee sesuka hati...
yang aku ingt ubt tue ade letter X...dah tak bleh nak recall name ape...so bantai saje...
and the correct one is OXYMETAZOLINE...
nak dekat same la tue kan?..kan?...ryte?..
owh...tak eyh?...
tak ke?..
ok tak..
lay the blame on me...

1 done and 3 more to go..

parasitology-22 jan
pathology -26 jan
microbiology-28 jan

ok..i gtg...
there are like heaps of parasit calling me to bermesra-mesraan
i think i better learn them by heart...or else...nnty exam ade pulak cacing aku bagi nama baru...

may u have a nice day,
nadiah wahab

*oxymetazoline and xylometazoline is an ephedrine nasal drops
- exert their effect by ++alpha 1 receptor and cause vasoconstriction of mucosal bl.vessel,in turn reduces the nasal oedema.
- may be absorbed systemically and produce hypertension effect
- may give rise to a rebound congestion on withdrawal~so use the minimal effective dose.
other example of ephedrine nasal decongestion-phenylpropronolamine-pseudoephidrine
(if there is any wrong point..correct me)

Exam mode!

2009-01-16T14:06:00.001-08:00

Good luck wish..to all 3rd year stdent(even i noe they not gnna read this) .goodluck.may Allah bestow upon us success fi dunia n akhirat

1st muharram

2008-12-29T14:22:00.000-08:00

its 1st muharram..salam maal hijrah everybody,,,
1430 hijrah- wish u to have a better year...

year in..year out...lots of BIG things happened which sweeten my life ..
and SMALL creamy thyng which complete the taste..so my life can be sweet and creamy just like the CHOCoLATE CAKE...
and no matter how hard it is for me to mix the ingredients all together..i believe in the end..it wud STILL have the taste of choc

while we are infatuated with keeping on walking trough the path...choosing the right way..
ever stop and take a break to look back?...
I DID..and wut left is just the memory...and the memory is haunting.i know...i know it pretty well....how does it feel missing the past........
but HELLO PEOPLE... I don't look back unless to be thankful..bear that,..thankful for all wut ALLAh gives me...either thyngs that
i wish for or thyngs that i dont...coz i believe ALLAH knows the best for me...for you..and for everyone in everythimng...

sometymes I don't understand from day to day how so many things can fall apart and then get put back together.....bigger and better....
and i dont think I have to understand that...its just the matter of how u pick the good part of everythyng...

and it took me 20 years to be ME today...
SYUKUR ala ALLAH...for everything..HE the one who destine everything..
remember that...don't ever forget it..and don't let me forget it either..

hee...words from me to start a better life to be a better muslim ..a better daughter..a better sister...a better friend..a better society member..a better SOMEONE fi dunia n akhrat..

p/s:doakan ketabahan n kesejahteraan palestine..they need our prayer...

love,
nadiah

better...

2008-12-23T01:40:00.000-08:00

nothing much happened...but i m getting better..bkn aku saket ke ape..tapi cam dah ade semangat balek ..sket la...sket pun ok dr hari tue...u dont have any idea how hard it s to me to pick back my scattered pieces..wawawa..tapi takpe i m used to it...hahhaha..poyo sajek...konon la..pdhal melara habes aku 2 minggun nie...everything da back to normal routine life EXCEPT
my laundryyyyyyyyyy..!!!maseh bertimbun2..napela takde machine yang kalau kite masukkan baju kotor..godek2..keluar terus baju yang suci bersih wangi harum semerbak berlipat beriron..wah2..bahagienye hidup wanita2 isteri2 sekalian...tidak ketinggalan BIBIK2 sekalian..banyak sket mase free untuk dieorng tgk cite anakku bkn anakku ...hak2..

everybody...sile la tahu saya sgt rindu malaysia occayy!!

p/s:arytue janji nak upload pic kat dubai..nnty2 la yerk..ampum mbaakk

love,
nadiah

hear me..

2008-12-17T11:02:00.000-08:00

hear me..i'm crying out...
find me...i'm lost inside the crowd..
grasp me...i'm falling down...
hold me...i'm drowning..i'm sinking...

xoxo,
nadiah

x larat..!!

2008-12-16T00:36:00.000-08:00

SGT TAK LARAAAAAAAATTT!!!

dgn wut m i feeling ryte now...down tahap cipan...!! Allah help me please..

sbb rindu ma family damn much..dammmit..damiit!!

sbb banyak gile aku blom cover study...n its killling me ....

sbb aku tgk semua orng sekeliling aku study from front cover smpi blkng each n every book n hafal word by word...again..its killing me...

sbb i have to do thing yang aku tak nak bt..n i treat it with a lotttsss of forbearance

sbb aku rasa cam nak nanges gile babeng but i have to hold ma tears...coz its so not mme....n kalau aku nanges susah nak berenti

sbb bilik aku cam tongkang pecah n aku serabut mata nak tgk...tapi malas nak kemas*i hate to use the word malas actually

kdng2 rase nak ddk at one point yang..aku xpyh bt benda to satisfy people...or even to satisfy myself...tapi TAK BOLEH..first i can't say NO to myself and i can't say NO to people.hee..

wishing u to have a better day than yesterday,
nadiah

i m back in mansoura

2008-12-14T11:47:00.000-08:00

penat blom hilang..baru smpi masoura semalam..mane aku pegi???...hee..DUBAI!!
ye..sangat seronok...wut a sweet2 memories..dr 1st day smpi 7th day setiap hari pun penuh ngan activity ...n shopping jd ketua...hahahha...

aku pegi 5 dec ary tue...naek flite from alex(tempat ira)...ingt nak masukkan entry jugak ary tue before pegi tapi hp buat hal...so takde la entry nye *alasan occay!..
smpi sane 4 pg.dubai sgt best..life kat sne sgt comfy n tempat die bersih gile2...even living cost die tinggi tapi ok la sbb gaji dieonrg pun cam tahap perdana menteri malaysia.hahaha..nnty aku msukkn pic aqku kt sane bile2 free nnty

mase nak kena balek egypt tue rase cm sedeyh gile...smpi jerk airport tue dah kena gaduh ngan arab..ade ke die charge taxi 55 pound yang patutnye 5 pound saje...WUT THE....????...bongok gile...kiteorng pon punggah keluar balek semua bagss yang berat nak mampooosss ..dah la aku sgt la tak tahannnyeee nak urinate dgn tahap ngantok babeng..mulut tak berhenti bebel

skang nie rase cm sedeyh gile..sgt rindu familyy...umi ayah fatin n wan..tahap gile2 punye..astu cam sedeyh gile rase kena back to normal lyfe yang sgt2 la tough nye..i need to gain ma spirit back...normal la kot..sbb aku baru balek dr tempat yang sgt comfy n best...n this feeling..it suckssss occaaayy!!..sgttt tak larat..naseb baek kena study..kalau dok umah saje mati laaa asek fikir sajeee...

hee...ok arh..need to go..
banyak benda nak kena cover...cuty langsung tak pegang buku,.,.

lots of love,
nadiah

a good day..

2008-12-02T15:10:00.000-08:00

ary nie bangun kol 7.30..n my lecture starts at 8 am..haha...xpe2 aku da biase da bangun rush2 cmtu..biase la tue...tross mandiii...water heater on xsmpi setengah jam..so mandi dgn air sejook occay!!..n believe it or not..believe it aku tak iron baju g kuliah...hahaha...sekali agy xpe2...mcm tak biase bt..

lecture finished at 4..balek umah..n dok kat meja study..godek2 lap top jap.sign in ym n bace offline msg....n then baca offline msg from ma aunty...

"C.jie rindu jugk kt k.long (its me...of course). Skrng klau keluar dgn umi(my mom la mksudnye tue) dok critelah pasal anak2. Semalam keluar dgn umi, dia dok crite pasal kemas bilik k.long. camana k.long simpan barang2 yg ade sentimental value sejak tadika. teringat dulu2 dok ngantar k.long gi nursery, tadika....kejap je masa berlalu. skang da musim hujn, mendung je..dah 2 minggu asek ujan takde matahari...lagilah suke layan2 perasaan bila drive kereta dalam hujan. he he...Banyak kan memori kita? anak2 umi(again..mknanya ma mom la), cikjie, cik la , cik jun n cik sue (nie semua ma aunties) paling byk spent mase bersama
oklah k.long, selamat belajar, jgn tension2. k.long ni, the coolest person I ever knew. InsyaAllah you can survive in what ever situatition..ckp org putih skit, biarle berterabur pun. Bye yang....

"

ok..that was lyke damn touching ok..but still..i tried hardlyyy not to cry la kan...kang payah pulak nak stop..

yea ryte..i miss those tyme very2 much..tapi bukan nak back to the past...it s just..i miss it.of course we have to move on kan..takkan nak stay at the same ponit sampai ble2...bile ingt n fikir balek mase dulu2 rase sekejap..tapi mase nak go trough semua2 tue rase lamee jee..cube ingt balek mase sekolah rendah..tak ke rase lame tue nak habeskan drjah 6..hahaha...tu zaman2 hingusan..skang dah tade hingus da..tyme selsema sajork...

then..lepas bace tue...i took a deeepp breath.trying to absorb the strength from each part of me..astu aku pon g borak2 ngan intan n wanie( ma housemates) n study sket2 untuk tuition

skang da kol 2pg..ngantok ok...gonna sleep now...nyteeeeee

have a good day..
nadiah

yes,i am alive..

2008-12-01T08:28:00.000-08:00

just not feeling so fantastic...hee...lame gile tak update..meh2 sini nak update..skang dah kat egypt..cuty summer dah lameee abess...2 buln yang lalu..haha...aku nie bt blog..tapi tak maw update..apo ntah.menyepahkan blogspot ni sajork..kot ye mls pun tak yah arh sampai 3 bulan sekali..haks.xpe..aku update pun takde yang bace pon kooottt..hee.
penyakit kalau start sem baru dlah mule dtg trooos tandakan X dekat planner hari nak balek next year..hahahadah skang dah 2 bulan lbih dtg sini..bilang hari nak balek rase lame..bilang hari yang dah lepas rase sekejap la plak..dah nak xm midsem dah pun..hak2..

..3rd year adalah cm hapeee je..cm nak pengsan .hari2 lecture abes at 3 or 4p.m...astu mlm 4 kali seminggu ade xtra lecture plak.n 4 ur information...maghrib adalah pukol 4.30..so kire cm balek tu ade setangah jam je agy nak maghrib...wut a hectic life...xpelah ..i bt ape yang termampu je...nnty tak menyesal di kemudian hari*MATANG..haks2..usaha x doa n tawakkal tak jadi jugak kan..so..everybody..please..i need ur doa..mintak2 dpt MUMTAZ this year *mumtaz=excellent...ameeeeeeeeeeeenn..n wut ever it takes pun aku akan bt ...Allah da bg ape yang aku nak..so...i ll play ma role sebaek mungkin..*SGT MATANG OCCAAY

a lotsss of things happened 2 3 bulan nie..tapi tak larat la plak nak cite semua kan...hee...everything went well..ade mslh siket2 tu biase la kan...

ary nie pun cm hari2 biase..cume i need to work a lil bit harder this week..sbb mext week nak g dubai rumah auntie ira..of course dgn ira la kan..EIDDD s coming...kiteorng raya kat sane...hee...its gonna be fun i guess..mesty...hee..

okeh...nexxxt!!..pharma..bubbye

xoxo
NADIAH

i m back!

2008-08-10T08:31:00.000-07:00

heee...lame ilang..m off to kl...astu spent 2days kat hospital...jumpe neurologist...bt ct scan n everything..bout ma migrain act..hee..and alhamdulillah ..i m ok..hee..astu bossan2 and rase nak bt suprise kat umi and ayah,..hee...konon2 jadi casa impian...eric tak maw tolong keee??..heee

ok abes cite kat kl...semalam birthday party najwa,ira's sis..so i baked some cupcakes for her...hee...and nie pun upload pixs cakes yang i baked dulu2.hee..saje kumpul2 balek..

and these pixs2 @ najwa's party semalam...ade games2 yang besh2..and paleng besh i won the treasure hunt game..hee..1st place..check these pix out

ok..itu aja ya for this post.ill be back..hee..everybody..pleae take care

have a great day,
nadieah

Cousins day out!

2008-07-26T12:42:00.001-07:00

Finally da dpt blogging frm ma hp.hee.tp xbest sgt.cm xfree to write.u noe wut i mean .ary nie pg g umh aimi ngn fam intan .n wanie.hee.ptg lepak2 ngn cousin...as2 blek umh n then mlm kuar mkn kt fresh smbl gossips.xoxo.hee..neway ira da blek.so ma schedule gnna b sgt2 pack dgn act ntah pape.hee..
love,nadiah

c..i told ya!!!!

2008-07-21T18:08:00.000-07:00

aish...c..i told ya..it wont be ma routine..huk2..4 entries n da ilang..hahaahahha...i guess kena blogging from ma hp..takde la smpi miss 10 hari..nnty2 la.
ok..last 10 days:
~dentist appointment...4 5 kali..wawawa...da lenguh
nganga kat dr tue..hee...denda sbb ponteng setahun..
~cake...cake..cake...n cake..wut a passion
~driver tak de gaji~
~ternak fat~
~routine pagi2..lepak ngan bibik..hee.tipoo...bibik wat keje n i lepak dpan tv
~after 10am ma auntie n her baby lepak sini...so adlh WAJIB turn to channel
astro ceria n tgk otromen dyna so layan saje
~download new songs..lame tak up date
~n malam kdg2 kuar lepak2 n makan roti bakar ngan ma mom n dad

ok...n yesterday ma uncle balek kelantan sbb nak bg invitation card for his son,arif's wedd...which i cant wait for...it s more to family gathr act..hahaha..sorry ariff..but seriously...sbb semua pun balek..n yang paleng best sbb skang tgh summer break..so yang kat luar pun balek.....da lame gile tak wat fam gathr n trip..i misssss it..

smlm kuar maen bowlink ngan amin..n ma bro n ira's bro..hee..adlah juta2 kali masuk longkang..kua.kua.kua.....mlm kiterng g pasar borong...
ok...b4 lupe.all are invited to majlis kesyukuran which will be held on this friday...at ma house..
so sile la dtg..

k .nnty nak try blog ngan hp...it shud be wayy easier...

lots of love
~nadieah

drowsy!!!

2008-07-09T09:39:00.000-07:00
i m drowsy all the day...semalam tido kol 4 lebeyh...and then bangun subuh kol 630...astu da tak tido balek da...umi n wan(ma bro) g scewl dlm kol 7 ..kol 730 gitu wan call mintak tolong hantar die punye no untuk larian...scewl die organisd larian marathon or jogathon or merentas desa or wut so ever u call it..so pegi la anta..hee..balek lepak2.breakfst n evrything.. kol 12 amek wan..n lepak umah mama ira jap...which is ma auntie la kan,,,....astu balek umah..
ptg dgn mengantuknye kuar minum ngan faten shafiq n faiz..ma clique kat sekolah dulu..sgt rindu.xsnap any pic pon..sibuk sgt dok borak..shafiq adlh ma classmate since i were form 1 sampi form 5.n kiteorng tak jumpe dr kuar sekolah dulu..geng2 yang laen semua da start sem baru..how sad
malam..me umi n ayah...kiteorng borak2 kat taman ..astu cycle2 kat dlm area umah.,,criously lame gile tak pegang bcycle..reti bawak straight je..corner da fail...hak..tanda2 gemoookk...
hee..n btw...da decide ,,i choosed the sony e...da beli da pon...huk2...so hp lame bg kat nenek...snang nnty nak cntct die if die kena g haemodialysis...n now..nak shleep da...hee..sgt mengantok plussss pening 20sen..k ...da~

hope u r having an owesome day
~nadiah

nice day

2008-07-08T09:41:00.000-07:00
pagi2 bangun astu ingt nak kena anta ma nanny to haemodialysis cnter kat hosptl perdana tapi tukar plan...ma auntie took over it ...so i just have to fetch her up je at 12..astu g beli lunch at ma fav nasi air stall...gosh..it just taste really really really good..u shud have a try...hee...sure naek berat banga lanaaa...TARGET:pakai kebaya di hari raya...hahaha..owh
hey YOU out there..maybe YOU can help me to figure this out...
(seriously tak tau if there is YOU...got me?..hee)
ok..tolong pilih mane agy best..

with spec:
~mp3
~1.3 megapixels cam with no digital zoom
~colour pink die besh

or this one

which is

2 megapixel
pink die tak best langsung coz its more to peach
and wut i hate most is,...die nye pink ade yang brand at&t je...so takde sign walkman at the front tu..hate it
hee...function die better la..

so the conclusion is..i only comparing the colour...coz obviously the sony e is better..hahahha..tak kire..sile pilih and ne more thing i am more to design hp than the func hp...seriously..he..

love~
nadiah

nadiah the anti-blogger

2008-07-07T09:54:00.000-07:00
Ok,i belived I would never do it...would never add the duties of blogging to my crazy schedule. Have been pretty intrigued by all the blogs I've read.wondering how in the world you all can be organized and efficient enough to keep a regular blog going. i used to have one before with just ONE single post and i forgot the password..hahahah...see..ngongek btol la...and now its kinda pwomish ngan intan as a part of ma summer vac..so i think i'd give it a go..soooooo...this may be a failure k..hee...

have a nice day
nadiah