tons of sorry..!!

salam
.huh!!!...sorry for the long hiatus...how i miss to blog..(xpercaya?..)..really i do..hee...first i m so so so so DAMN busy with my final exam...and 2nd umah takde internet..since..since...since like forever...ni pun dpt wireless kat bilik wani(my housemate)..arab mane punye ntah

m done with my fisrt paper..and its pharma...the most dreadful paper i ve ever sit for...
11/5/09-writting paper 1
12/5/09-writting paper 2
13/5/09-case
19/5/09-oral

huh!..huh!..huh!..3writting paper in a row..ya amppuuunn bisa jadi gilaaa guee....and i suffered from dyspnea...tachypnea...tachycardia...hyperglycaemia...hyperlipidemia..opps.....
CORRECTION!!..all are correct except the last one..HAHA
the 1st and 2nd paper ...arghhh!!...the question wasnt SO HARD...but 5 essay questions with 15 marks each and every question needs 3 pages to answer ONLY FOR 2HOURS?....come on la weeeeyyy....50 soalan objective SPM pun bagi 1 1/2 jam..ok2...tapi kalau die bagi 5 jam pun takde la aku akan dpt full marks...(sbb dulu selalu ckg add math aku marah kalau bagi alasan tak cukup masa kalau tak dpt A1..die ckp "NAPE KALAU BAGI KO 3 JAM KO BLEH DPT 100??..ammmek ko!!)...BUT STILL i need more than 2 hours at least..
after the first paper..i was like...dowwnnn gileee...balek umah..i just lay down on wani's bed(sbb katil aku takde ruang dah nak tido..bukan bersepah..cume kurang kemas)...takdek semangat langsung nak study for the next paper...FRUST..FRUST gile..
and smpi after asar..i try hardly to hold my tears...sbb kalau nanges susah nak berhenti..nnty terus migraine..and then suddenly ..i fikir...
where are all my tawakal gone?...yes...whre are they...??...i shouldnt just sit and regret and in the end i got nothing ...cause verily I have put my trust in Allah..no doubt...MY BAD hurm..all i can do is berusaha...and doa is a part of berusaha...tawakkal is a part of berusah..and leave the rest on ALLAH...
..one thing i want to share with u.....
One day Prophet Muhammad, peace and blessings be upon him, noticed a man leaving his camel without tying it. He asked the man, "Why don't you tie down your camel?" and the man answered, "I put my trust in Allah." The Prophet then said, "Tie your camel first, then put your trust in Allah."
means that don't ever say aku bertawakkal if u wake up at 8.50a.m after 10 hours "gaining energy" and sit for ur exam at 9.00a.m..itu bukan tawakkal..itu adalah NGOKNGEK.

biarlah paper yang sudah lepas and for now..i tgh prepare for the next paper...(padahal tgh update blog)
25/5/09-parasitology writting paper
26/05/09-parasitology oral
paper ini adalah berkenaan how many legs does kutu kat atas ur kepala possess...hurm...hee,,,wish me luck...and pray for me and my friends too..


and the MOST IMPORTANT thing that i want to announce is that i am giving myself permission to never, ever make a promise to make an entry again..dulu pernah promised nak masukkan gambar kat dubai..TAPI...HARAAAmMm..habuk pun takde..i ve promised u to make an entry about how to make study fun and again i cant make it..huh!!...because i have no tyme...seriouss..sorryy2..and sorry..and sorry dear readers(kalau ade readers la)...hee...ok..so thats it..NO MORE PROMISES.

so..i wanna wish GOOD LUCK to all the malaysian medical student mansoura university..esp 3rd year n my friend kt 2nd year..and I always pray that insyaAllah..ALLAH is there in every step of our way...

with thousands of love,
nadiahwahab

it has been a while

..yes it HAS.
sorry people…hee…but I am too busy with my finals preparation.yes2..my 3RD YEAR FINAL EXAM..it will be on 18th of april and I only have 3 weeks left..
3 WEEKS!?????.

.OMG.i am SO SO SO DEAD..and at this moment my ‘to do list’ Is VERY VERY huge and long…and it is even longer than my shopping receipt at WIKALAH…(wikalah=hypermarket..actually I m not sure it is HYPER or HYPOmarket..hiks)..YES.,i need a ‘to do’ list..and a ‘to do’ list doesn’t have to be neatly and beautifully written complete with a small tick box right?..Cause mine ain’t…u should have one too cause it EXTREMELY works

GOSH…there is so much things need to be done but so little time left…and adrenaline rush kinda make it worse..i have tachycardia and my BP is 140/90……owh please2..i guess I am BADLY in need of barbiturates now..and I mean in HIGH dose..

i ve went trough this during my 1st and 2and year..but this time is waaaaaayyyyyyy CRAZIEEERRR
SeRIOUSLY 3rd year medical school is killing me!!..
tons of drug in pharmacology is stabbing me.,
thousands of bacteria virus fungi and whatever microbes behead me
pathology is paralysing me
hundred of worm fleas n mosquito n parasites incise me
but i m not gonna let this happens to me...

I need to organize myself…...

1. Niat..yes reset niatin case u mistakenly set ur niat ….everything i do is for the sake of Allah Decide why you want to do it. Nobody ever really enjoy doing something because they 'should' or they 'have to'.. so Find the honest reason for doing the task

2. Starts with my ‘to do’ list …and please!..do not list down thing beyond your ability..i mean SET YOUR LIMIT…
And take menial tasks away from busy people like YOU such as organising you laundry, this gives busy people more time to be... well...BUSY..and here I mean GET TO KNOW your PRIORITY.


3. Stress is synonymous with medical school..no way to dodge from it right?.,so try to "use" stress...If you can't remedy, nor escape from, what is bothering you, flow with it.for example..munch while you are study helps u to reduce ur stress..so just EAT...at least u can safe your time for lunch...and stress actually can causes more glucose to be delivered to the brain, which makes more energy available to neurons. This, in turn, enhances memory formation...ryte?..hee...please....cope with your stress...or else u gonna be like this



so i guess let start it from NOW!!!..beacause it s never too late for you to start.except your are afraid to


i'll be back with "how to make ur study more fun?".....sounds redicilous huh!!...but hell yeah....study can be fun...

talk to you soon,
nadiahwahab

i m a lady

salam people..m back...in egypttt...whoaaa.back to my routine life...

i think..it s like every girl ever heard "act as a lady"...did u?

when i was a little girl...i never thought that one day i would be a lady as today and a woman,tomorrow...all that i had imagined is..
-wake up every morning with a smile..
-pick dress from my wardrobe which packed tightly with branded,splendid,PINK clothes..
-get in my OWN car..
-back from hospital(sbb mase nie dah berangan nak jadi doctor)..
-bake my fav cake or pie or wutever..
-and go to sleep with a big smileee AGAIIN..
i imagined i wud have a GREAT day EVERYDAY.GREAT career.BEAUTIFUL and BIG house....GREAT love story..GREAT life..PERFECT hurm?..
but it never happen that way..BEING a LADY never been that easy..because the biggest decision that u have to make is not "nak maen masak2 or nak maen cikgu2?" ANYMOREEE..its " what do i have to cook for today" later it wud be "how much loan do i have to apply for the house"..got me?...
and reading HOW TO BE A LADY? article sometimes doesnt help u at all..

WAIITT...don't get me wrong...I HAVE A GREAT life now..its just sometimes there s day when i feel everything goes wrong and nothing goes right...there is tyme when there is so much pain around..and there is time when my heart bleed..there may be day when u feel like nobody understand u..
YESS it happen to me..it happen to us...

NEVERTHELESS

as a LADY.now i can talk to umi as we are friends..and we talk about everything..its just AWESOME..and now ayah can talk to me about my CAREER...hows that?..i can lepak with my aunty...i have days when i can sit with my LADYFRIENDS and gossiP!!..no more PUPPY LOVE...no more PHEWWIT whistle from mamat2 yang tgh lepak when i pass by them(ke aku dah TAK LAKU ??)..no more uniform.no more "kirimsalam2" thing.....and NOW i can put the tittle MIsS or CIK in the flight booking form...heee..

so i guess more or less it heals the hard part....

pretty hard from what i had imagine hurm??..

and being a LADY ...sometimes i feel i need time to be ALONE!!

i think it wud be fun if u can share ur GIRL,LADY, and WOMEN transformation..sounds fun right?.....hee.so feel free to do so..

I AM A LADY
remember me this way,
nadiah wahab

DARKNESS and BLESSING

yes!!.alhamdulillah...the exam was over..

tak sedar i have finished half of my third year in medicine...
n this semester..it had been a tough,emotional,painful, semester..yes it was..but.i take it as it is..

Last week i read my friend's blog...she wrote about her darkness time and how she went trough those time...
and last few days i just had a conversation with a good friend..she s now trap in her darkness moment..

i guess everybody has ever been in the DARKNESS..its the time when u feel like u can see nothing..when there is silence and cold..when u feel like u are all alone
when all u can do is just STAY STILL cause u re afraid of misstep stumble and fall and hurt ..
at that time...dont keep on asking WHY you are in the darkness...but FIND the way out from it...
hold tighly to Allah.. grasp Him with all the strength and energy that u have..
and GET UP..RUB THE PAIN...TREAT THE WOUND...and MOVE...search for the LIGHT...
there is always light at the end of the tunnell..

don't run FROM darkness.BUT run TOWARD the light then it ll be much much more easier for you..

i have been in my darkness time too...
and i was crying out loud,begging and hoping i have the strength and the will to step out from it ..and i make it..
i make it EVEN..at first i lost my way...i slipped..i fell and badly hurt .it took me a long time to get over the wound..
i was mumbling over and over again. ..i insanely forgot "Allah does not burden any soul with more than it can bear” [2:286]..even an inch more or an inch less. FOOL ME huh?...
and from this GREAT PRECIOUS experince i ve learn lotsss of thing...
i learn that SEEING after not SEEING is so much more AWESOME than never knwing how does it feel not to be able to SEE..
i learn that to know how does the SWEET taste..we have to taste the BITTER..to appreciate the BEAUTY we have to know how the UGLY is .to feel the warmth we have to feel the cold.
and to truly SEE the light we have to SEE dark...
and the most important thing that i learn is...IF i am in the darkness again..i am wise enough to know where the obstacle is so then i wont be stumbled anymore

yes..there is always hikmah behind everything that happened..but the hardest part is to look for the HIKMAH...
it may come at the end of the story..and it need a lotttt of our forbearance and tenacity...
with Allah;s bounty..He gives a lot of GREAT people around me..ma family..friends..and everybody around...even YOU readers...and those who have been praying for me..
without all these people..their words..their care..their love ..their prayers..i dont think i m able to make it this far...

so the DARKNESS doesnt always be the calamity...but it can be a BLESS...hurm..
but people alway and always tend to count the grief not the blessing...so do i...bad hurm?...

may u have a great2 winter break,
nadiah wahab

oxymetazoline..yea ryte..

done with pharma..and the exam was...whatever...

sgt susaaaah occay..and today i realize how creative i am..know why?..

aku invent new drug to treat nasal congestion...OXYPRENONE...
ye2..saye tahu...mesty takde orng pernah dgr..there s no such drug on earth...even ko khatam buku pharma 10kali pun.xkan jumpa punye.
hahaha...sbb dah tak tahu sgt nak jwb ape...aku letak sajeee sesuka hati...
yang aku ingt ubt tue ade letter X...dah tak bleh nak recall name ape...so bantai saje...
and the correct one is OXYMETAZOLINE...
nak dekat same la tue kan?..kan?...ryte?..
owh...tak eyh?...
tak ke?..
ok tak..
lay the blame on me...

1 done and 3 more to go..

parasitology-22 jan
pathology -26 jan
microbiology-28 jan

ok..i gtg...
there are like heaps of parasit calling me to bermesra-mesraan
i think i better learn them by heart...or else...nnty exam ade pulak cacing aku bagi nama baru...

may u have a nice day,
nadiah wahab

*oxymetazoline and xylometazoline is an ephedrine nasal drops
- exert their effect by ++alpha 1 receptor and cause vasoconstriction of mucosal bl.vessel,in turn reduces the nasal oedema.
- may be absorbed systemically and produce hypertension effect
- may give rise to a rebound congestion on withdrawal~so use the minimal effective dose.
other example of ephedrine nasal decongestion-phenylpropronolamine-pseudoephidrine
(if there is any wrong point..correct me)

Exam mode!

Good luck wish..to all 3rd year stdent(even i noe they not gnna read this) .goodluck.may Allah bestow upon us success fi dunia n akhirat

1st muharram

its 1st muharram..salam maal hijrah everybody,,,
1430 hijrah- wish u to have a better year...

year in..year out...lots of BIG things happened which sweeten my life ..
and SMALL creamy thyng which complete the taste..so my life can be sweet and creamy just like the CHOCoLATE CAKE...
and no matter how hard it is for me to mix the ingredients all together..i believe in the end..it wud STILL have the taste of choc

while we are infatuated with keeping on walking trough the path...choosing the right way..
ever stop and take a break to look back?...
I DID..and wut left is just the memory...and the memory is haunting.i know...i know it pretty well....how does it feel missing the past........
but HELLO PEOPLE... I don't look back unless to be thankful..bear that,..thankful for all wut ALLAh gives me...either thyngs that
i wish for or thyngs that i dont...coz i believe ALLAH knows the best for me...for you..and for everyone in everythimng...

sometymes I don't understand from day to day how so many things can fall apart and then get put back together.....bigger and better....
and i dont think I have to understand that...its just the matter of how u pick the good part of everythyng...

and it took me 20 years to be ME today...
SYUKUR ala ALLAH...for everything..HE the one who destine everything..
remember that...don't ever forget it..and don't let me forget it either..

hee...words from me to start a better life to be a better muslim ..a better daughter..a better sister...a better friend..a better society member..a better SOMEONE fi dunia n akhrat..


p/s:doakan ketabahan n kesejahteraan palestine..they need our prayer...

love,
nadiah

better...

nothing much happened...but i m getting better..bkn aku saket ke ape..tapi cam dah ade semangat balek ..sket la...sket pun ok dr hari tue...u dont have any idea how hard it s to me to pick back my scattered pieces..wawawa..tapi takpe i m used to it...hahhaha..poyo sajek...konon la..pdhal melara habes aku 2 minggun nie...everything da back to normal routine life EXCEPT
my laundryyyyyyyyyy..!!!maseh bertimbun2..napela takde machine yang kalau kite masukkan baju kotor..godek2..keluar terus baju yang suci bersih wangi harum semerbak berlipat beriron..wah2..bahagienye hidup wanita2 isteri2 sekalian...tidak ketinggalan BIBIK2 sekalian..banyak sket mase free untuk dieorng tgk cite anakku bkn anakku ...hak2..

everybody...sile la tahu saya sgt rindu malaysia occayy!!

p/s:arytue janji nak upload pic kat dubai..nnty2 la yerk..ampum mbaakk

love,
nadiah

hear me..

hear me..i'm crying out...
find me...i'm lost inside the crowd..
grasp me...i'm falling down...
hold me...i'm drowning..i'm sinking...

xoxo,
nadiah

x larat..!!

SGT TAK LARAAAAAAAATTT!!!

dgn wut m i feeling ryte now...down tahap cipan...!! Allah help me please..

sbb rindu ma family damn much..dammmit..damiit!!

sbb banyak gile aku blom cover study...n its killling me ....

sbb aku tgk semua orng sekeliling aku study from front cover smpi blkng each n every book n hafal word by word...again..its killing me...

sbb i have to do thing yang aku tak nak bt..n i treat it with a lotttsss of forbearance

sbb aku rasa cam nak nanges gile babeng but i have to hold ma tears...coz its so not mme....n kalau aku nanges susah nak berenti

sbb bilik aku cam tongkang pecah n aku serabut mata nak tgk...tapi malas nak kemas*i hate to use the word malas actually

kdng2 rase nak ddk at one point yang..aku xpyh bt benda to satisfy people...or even to satisfy myself...tapi TAK BOLEH..first i can't say NO to myself and i can't say NO to people.hee..

wishing u to have a better day than yesterday,
nadiah