Sunday 1 February 2009

DARKNESS and BLESSING

yes!!.alhamdulillah...the exam was over..

tak sedar i have finished half of my third year in medicine...
n this semester..it had been a tough,emotional,painful, semester..yes it was..but.i take it as it is..

Last week i read my friend's blog...she wrote about her darkness time and how she went trough those time...
and last few days i just had a conversation with a good friend..she s now trap in her darkness moment..

i guess everybody has ever been in the DARKNESS..its the time when u feel like u can see nothing..when there is silence and cold..when u feel like u are all alone
when all u can do is just STAY STILL cause u re afraid of misstep stumble and fall and hurt ..
at that time...dont keep on asking WHY you are in the darkness...but FIND the way out from it...
hold tighly to Allah.. grasp Him with all the strength and energy that u have..
and GET UP..RUB THE PAIN...TREAT THE WOUND...and MOVE...search for the LIGHT...
there is always light at the end of the tunnell..

don't run FROM darkness.BUT run TOWARD the light then it ll be much much more easier for you..

i have been in my darkness time too...
and i was crying out loud,begging and hoping i have the strength and the will to step out from it ..and i make it..
i make it EVEN..at first i lost my way...i slipped..i fell and badly hurt .it took me a long time to get over the wound..
i was mumbling over and over again. ..i insanely forgot "Allah does not burden any soul with more than it can bear” [2:286]..even an inch more or an inch less. FOOL ME huh?...
and from this GREAT PRECIOUS experince i ve learn lotsss of thing...
i learn that SEEING after not SEEING is so much more AWESOME than never knwing how does it feel not to be able to SEE..
i learn that to know how does the SWEET taste..we have to taste the BITTER..to appreciate the BEAUTY we have to know how the UGLY is .to feel the warmth we have to feel the cold.
and to truly SEE the light we have to SEE dark...
and the most important thing that i learn is...IF i am in the darkness again..i am wise enough to know where the obstacle is so then i wont be stumbled anymore

yes..there is always hikmah behind everything that happened..but the hardest part is to look for the HIKMAH...
it may come at the end of the story..and it need a lotttt of our forbearance and tenacity...
with Allah;s bounty..He gives a lot of GREAT people around me..ma family..friends..and everybody around...even YOU readers...and those who have been praying for me..
without all these people..their words..their care..their love ..their prayers..i dont think i m able to make it this far...

so the DARKNESS doesnt always be the calamity...but it can be a BLESS...hurm..
but people alway and always tend to count the grief not the blessing...so do i...bad hurm?...

may u have a great2 winter break,
nadiah wahab

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

tulih la lagi.. tulih la alfgi... suke ku membace nya.. ; )

Anonymous said...

nadiaaahhh!!!!!!!!
hehe..sonoknyee dok umah..=p

Zu Nurain Ahmad said...

updateeee2! =p